I just wanted to stay with you
I just wanted to feel your breath of grace
I didn't know what to do
I couldn't say anything
when consciousness returned
everything had been washed away
by the tide of time, even you
but the scars of memory never fade away
I can't stop loving you
stop my tears
stop my loving
kill my memories

Heart of black and red.
And the falling of white chrysanthemums.
This rock,
knows not feelings,of course.
But only dwells upon the sores of the rosegarden.
and
Anger is made up of charcoal.



Draw out,
the Baphomet.
Should I?


Sometimes,i wonder if you do care.
I wonder if you ever took in consideration of my concern.
Was a game more important,
than my need of salvation?
I thought you would be there,
because we were friends at the very least.
You are selfish.
Caring,
was the most dumbest thing,
i ever did.
Seriously,

fuck you.

You ought to know who you are,
IF you ever even read my blog.

Crazy over Sisters Of Mercy.Damn...No one.Absolutely no one sounds like them.They rock.Now that's what i call goth.

Battlin this friday.Two on Two.Haha...Me and Nick against another two.Woot...It's gonna be fun as hell.

I see those palms of scars.
They stretch out towards me,
your eyes, they're swollen.
You shouldn't have cried.
I'm not good enough for you.
I try to walk away,
but you hold on to my ankles.
I continue,
hardening my heart.
But you hold on,
never letting me go.

You don't care whether you are dragged across the jagged floor of life.
You don't care of the things i've said.
You don't care of the things i've done.
You don't care about the things i've done to you.

Seeing you,
I just stood there.
Building a wall...
Between you and me.
Made up of bricks of pride and self belief.
So i can never see.

I never walked away...

I heard your muffled cries.
I knew you were crying,
You cried till you were dry.
but no tears appeared.
I heard you scraping the walls with your nails.
And i never knocked down the wall.
I wanted to walk on with life alone,
thinking i could succeed.
But i never started on the journey.
Because i never walked a journey....



You were carrying me all along.

Credit goes to Bargul from Deviantart for the lovely picture!

I got nothing much to say really...

So anything...just tag it up.

Suicide.

Where to?

Plug me into reality.

Beast,devoured my soul?

Surreal visions of purple plains.

Hell's best or Heaven's slums?

Towering pyramid of sacrifice.

Loki,is that you?

Coins of God.

There's the other side right?

Engulf me in the shadows.

It's already done.


I haven't been updating for quite some time now...Anyways,

It's been a big week with lots of CNY celebrations.I guess it's not too bad meeting my cousins even though this year was rather dull because not all of my cousins were present.But well,it wasn't all that bad.

School is really beginning to suck.In the past,it was still bearable.Now,it's seriously fucked.Can't wait to get out and over with this shit hole.All the teachers have gone mad.Most of my classmates are corny childish bitch fucks.I'm not the best...but...

B-boying hasn't been really all that kind to me.I'm injured all over the place.Haha...Windmills sure can kill.But,it's all for good i guess.Floorskills is a month away.Just hope we can make it past the first round or something.After that,I'll be happy and start reaching for higher goals.
Inertia and Elite Team,train hard ah...!
The crew is going through it's most united phase at the moment in my opinion.Hope after all the turbulence,everything's settled.

Got a new book from my good friend.Thanks ah...I appreciate it.But lemme return the cash.I don't wanna feel like i owe you or something.It's a very inspiring book about heaven and life after death."The 5 people you meet in heaven" is ultimately the most inspiring book that I've ever come across.I got a quote from it at the second column of my blog.

Caught Constantine with the mates.Not too bad a movie i guess.Rather spiritually awakening.About Heaven and Hell being in the same place but of different dimensions.Oh so true...Our worlds made up of dimensions taht we know of.1st,2nd and 3rd dimensions...That's what we can catch with our normal thinking.But if we were to go further into detail...More dimensions will open up.I remember reading about this in a book of a theory of dimensions in Kinokuniya.Maybe that's the next book I'll get.

OK,i've written enough to offend people.
Till next time then.

My soul's placebo....

I think about my life .
and how now there's nothing I won't do.
Just for one more day.
One more day with you.

Everytime I see your face.
Everytime you look my way.
It's like it all falls into place.
Everything feels right .
Everytime I hear your name.
Everytime I feel the same.
It's like it all falls into place.
Everything feels right.


One more day
Just one more day
It's all I need,
just one more day with you...

Inertia is officially one year old!!And it sure hasn't been an easy year for us.Through all the broken promises and bullshit we've been through.From a huge number of 13 people.It has become only but 6 members representing hard.Everyone of you guys...Nic,Tosh,De Hui,Jordan and Chiro...We've become like brothers.Without you guys,Inertia wouldn't be the same.I love all of you.If i had never met any of you,i would never be what i am.Thank you guys.
Together,we shall head to the top.
Together,we will fufill the promise.
Together,we will never stop moving....


School has been really demanding for me these few days.I'm so exhausted.But i'm doing well with some people.They are giving me the strength to carry on.But boy am i tired.

And oh yeah,i didn't backslide because of someone i know who made comments.You wanna leave,just go!Don't come back,or make things worse.We don't need you. Tell you the truth,you are only making things worse.You're making everyone of us hate you and your beliefs.You are the one instead that made me backslide.Fuck off and not around...