I'll never forget.
I'll never remember.
You're somewhere in between.
But I'd rather forget.
Because I'm like a vagabond,
that's sleeping outside your door.
Not knowing what his existence means to you.
I'm nothing.
I bleed and i cry.
Maybe if I'm lucky,


I'll just die.
In this little hole that I've dug within my heart....

Ahhh...The mundanity of school.How i hate it.Sometimes,i wonder whether school is going to give me a purposeful life.

Math lessons.

Physics lessons.

Chemistry lessons.

Singing lessons led my Mr Koh.

Daaaamn.....

Oh...And i've been sexually harassed by none other than the Prada girls.And no...I don't think Kristin loves me.LOL... It's not a case of whether I'm angry or not,but rather,I'm more scared....I've never been sexually harrased before.

Liz asked me to write another poem in another tone.I'll try....but i'm not sure it'll do.Because i'm not feeling particularly happy...or satisfied...or excited...or whatever makes me horny in that case.I'll try,maybe when my mood changes.Maybe.

Tomorrow's the battle.I'm so damn nervous.I hope i don't screw up.Cos screwing up individually=screwing up as a team.I don't wanna let ya'll down.Lets just do our best...

Fuck...I've just heard the dumbest shit in a long time.And its makin me laugh all over.Damn hypocrites.Damn you.Sometimes i wonder why i put up with all your dumb talks and bother to go all the way to the place and feel lost,lonely and empty.That's just bullshit.Plain good ol' bullshit.

OK...I think i'm done bitchin about this and that.

Later.

I never wanted it to ever spoil.
But flies will lay their eggs.
Take your hatred out on me.
Make your victim my head...
You never ever believed in me.

I am your tourniquet....

Behind those brown eyes,
I see nothing but a dark abyss.
That body,
carry the scars of the pandemonium of life.

It isn't worth it.
Life isn't worth it at all.

Your feet carry the sores and blisters of the long hard road.
Water has no effect on your exhaustion.

Because water plays no part in a corpse.

Had a friendly battle with Elite Team yesterday.And boy was it fun.They are definitely not called Elite Team for nothing.Hope we can have more sessions together in the future.Learnt alot and oh so inspired by the members of Elite Team.Thanks guys!!This lil battle definitly prepared me for the upcoming competition that's gonna happen on friday.Hopefully we will be able to pass through the first few rounds.Looks like it's breaking everyday for the next week or so..



A pill to make you numb.
A pill to make you dumb.
A pill to make you anyone else...

But all the drugs in this world,
Won't save her from herself.
-Brian Warner


Its been so long since i've been to church.So busy...oh so busy.I'm definitely gonna go this week.

I wanna live.
I wanna love.
But it's a long hard road outta hell.

You never said that forever,could ever hurt like this...

-M.M

Here I am,sitting here in front of my computer after receiving a call from Miss Yam questioning my absence from school like only the third week of school and I'm out of shape my.Especially back.Looks like breaking and school don't go together times pretty serious can't move my shoulders properly and my neck is hurting 24/7.Trust my mates to laughed at me...And I'm starting to hate roll back headstands....

School has been pretty good on me for the past three weeks.Not too harsh and not too strenous.It's all good.Except the fact that I'm still going to sit for the O's which seems rather surreal at the moment.

Oh yeah!!Finally found a couple of books by Anton LaVey.I'm oh so in love with it.I'm gonna get ASAP...!

I'm not sure.But i think alot of people know of my blog.Especially of my school mates.I hope not.But anyways...If ya'll are reading this,then so be it.

My heart burns with torment.
I hate myself.
I'm such a liar...
And the only person I hurt was myself.

Burn burn burn...
The angels inside me.
Burn burn burn...
I wanna see you fly with tattered wings.

I'm the judge.
The jury.
The victim.
The guilty.

Putting myself to death.
With unanimous decision.
Through the fire i will walk.
For i'm always guilty.
The pain...i deserve it.
Because i caused harm upon myself.

I close my eyes.
A sign of giving up.
I render myself useless...
And fall deep into the beast's mouth.
Where there will always be regret....

Worthless, want to, be God,
Loser imitation
Fallen from all grace,
Deceitful lying beast your bound
Lord of maggots,
we rebuke you,
Devil evil no authority
Whatever's bound on earth,
Will in heaven be bound
Enemy of God every knee will bow
Every tongue confess
You're already dead,
Be seen for what you are
Liar, liar, liar, liar
Enemy of God every knee will bow
Every tongue confess

Jesus Christ is Lord...

Those eyes blind me.
The eyes I see in the mirror.
Somehow,it doesn't look like me.
His heart is empty.

Cold and hardened.

Maybe because you broke it once...
It has never been the same.
And my tears fall onto forsaken lands.

You don't know me.But i wish to know you.
To embrace you...
Is all I could ever want.


It's all i would ever need....

New Year resolutions.This,i guess is a little late.But i guess i don't need them.Keep your aims in your heart and you will get there.

This year has already been spoilt for me.Just received my D&T assignment for my 'O's.And its like,what,the second friggin day of school?!Thats the number one,numero uno,di yi ge spoiler of the whole damn year.That means i have work to do every week end.Weee...

Yeah....another boring lil post of mine.Just a lil shout out to Inertia:

We have to keep everyone involved.When it's time to break.We break.Time to talk shit and do shit.We do just that.When its time to listen,we listen.We cannot walk the dream unless we devote ourselves totally to what we do.And we cannot always think about ourselves.Sometimes,we need to think for others too.I'm not saying that i'm totally Godly,just that...We must stick together by doing things together not for ourselves,but also,for the rest of the mates.We can achieve what we want,i believe in all of you.

Ahh...The familiarity of school.The sucky and expensive canteen food.The same humid and boring looking classrooms.But somehow,I really like it.Maybe school isn't so bad after all.What else can i say?Its just the first day of school and that means the first day of studying for my 'O' levels.I don't know.Alot of people have told me that it's just too early to start.But i guess it's always too late.So what really am i doing here,writing this as an update for my blog?Looks like i must kill my mood and just head into my dull lookin room...And listen to The Cure while doing my work.

Some how,The Cure has been the only thing i've been listening to these days.They go so much into feelings and just head straight for it.Pain,anger,joy,warmth...All these feelings expressed in such emotion...It's just amazing.

Oh well...Looks like i gotta start somewhere.I'm going off to do my work now.

Later...

What a new year.Can't believe I celebrated it when we were supposed to be mourning.The hypocrisy of human beings. All the lives wasted in an instant and as if that ain't enough,the numbers are still rising.It has risen to a point that the WHO has stopped counting the death toll.I won't say that i enjoyed ushering the new year.And i believe my crew didn't too.On that very night,i remember talking about them together.The dead and soon to be forgotten.Their individual lives.The lives that they wanted to live.And the dreams that were yet to be fufilled.

And i seen and heard a couple of people joking about it...

But I'd rather say...

Rest In Peace.