"How Come" - D12

How come we dont even talk no more
And you dont even call no more
We dont barely keep in touch at all
And I dont even feel the same love when we hug no more
And I heard it through the grape vine we even beefin now
After all the years we been down
Aint no way no how, this bullshit can be true
We family and aint a damn thing changed,
unless it's you...

So....whats next to come?

Ahh...Time for an update.

Finished my exams not too long ago and even recieved my grades.Guess i did pretty badly.But none the less, I'm gonna work like I've never worked before for my O's.Thats if i can change my lazy ass attitude.Ahh...My class mates having a chalet in which a BBQ is planned!!I'm gonna just go and eat only!!Muahahaha...Hope Kai Meng or someone wun see this,if not they won't let me go.

As for breaking,nothing much has been going down lately.Injured my leg so i guess im down and out for a week or two.I cant even lift my left leg up.I just hope it quickly heals in time for the battle against RNC.

Every little day.Lives being lost.Lives that could have been put to better use.War is always waged.

Give it to him Eminem:

http://mosh.eminem.com/video/

In our system of the world that we know,we can never reach world peace.It will only be achieved if this world is rid of humans.Humans are a filthy bunch.Greedy for eveything.I dun deny that i ain't greedy.I am.But peace is nothing but a part of our mind map in our heads.It can never be reached.

Never.

"Warm Safe Place"
Another day
Inside my world
I'm married to
you and this road.
A road that never lets
me sleep .
So theres no way to escape the
demons I am forced to keep.
And then I find you here

Through your eyes
Everything's clear
And I'm home
Inside your arms,
But I'm alone for now.

I mean the best
with what I say.
It doesn't always
sound that way
I never learned to
Work things out cause
In my family all we
Ever seem to do is shout

But then I find you here
Through your eyes,
everythings clear
And I'm home
inside your arms,
but I'm alone for now.

And when I try to sleep-
the drugs I take
are killing me - I think of you
to ease my pain -
but you're so far-
Now it's time to say goodbye.
I love you baby
please don't cry -
'cause then I'll find you here -
Through your eyes everythings clear -
and I'm home inside your arms - but I'm alone for now.
But then I find you here
Through your eyes,
everythings clear
And I'm home
inside your arms,
but I'm alone for now.
-Staind-

I'm slowly crossing to the other end once again.
The passageway that always leads to no where.
Yet promising a final destination.
I've let down so many,
and thus,letting them know that they were right.
I've been given the choice.
But yet one path is always so easy.

So easy.
So nice.
So satisfying...

I saw you walking the harder path.
I want to be with you.
I want to be like you.


But thats only one of many of my distorted memories.

The blood tasted good.
I remember the taste as it was.
Shockingly sweet but yet with a strong metallic taste.
The pain had already played itself out.
What was left was nothing but a sense of triumph over my own pain.
That satisfaction.That anger all being extinguished with a short moment of pain.
Maybe its the reason why i'm always angry nowadays.
Because i can't cut away the pain.
But,now i find myself yearning for the blood...

The pain.

But i must never go back.
I must find another alternative.....
And i think i found it.

Nickelback
-Woke Up This Morning-

I paid my last respects this mornin' on an early grave
Already said goodbye, nothin left to say
A tiny church a tiny town and not a tear was spent
Not how I wanted it, I'm hating all of this

Well I'm hating, all of this
I'm hating, all of this
All of this, all of this
Now I know why, I hide my love from you somedays
No I don't mind keeping this bottled inside me
You came along, and tore this world out around me
Looks like you found me
Now I know why
I felt like shit when I woke up this morning

I've been a loser all my life, I'm not about to change
If you don't like, there's the door, nobody made you stay
There ain't a woman on the planet who can deal with it
Just how I wanted it, I'm hating all of this

Well I'm hating, all of this
I'm hating, all of this
All of this, all of this
Now I know why, I hide my love from you somedays
No I don't mind keeping this bottled inside me
You came along, and tore this world out around me
Looks like you found me
Now I know why
I felt like shit when I woke up this morning

All of this, All of this
Now I know why, I hide my love from you somedays
No I don't mind keeping this bottled inside me
You came along, and tore this world out around me
Looks like you found me
Now I know why
I felt like shit when I woke up this morning

I'm running after an impossible goal.

Herzblut

Nachts, wenn alles schläft
streu ich dir Sand in deine Augen
Nachts, wenn alles schläft
schenk ich dir einen Traum
Nachts, wenn alles schläft
will ich an deinen Lippen saugen
Nachts, wenn alles schläft
bin ich bei dir
ganz nah

Schenk mir dein Herzblut
Vergieß es für mich
Schick mir die Sintflut
Lass es regnen auf mich

Nachts, wenn alles schläft
bin ich der Hüter deiner Unschuld
Nachts, wenn alles schläft
geb ich gut Acht dass dir nichts geschieht
Nachts, wenn alles schläft
küss ich das Salz aus deinen Wunden
Nachts
Tief nachts

In the night, when everything is sleeping
I sprinkle the sand into your eyes
In the night, when everything is sleeping
I send you a dream
In the night, when everything is sleeping
I want to suck on your lips
In the night, when everything is sleeping
I am by you
very near...

Give me the blood of your heart
Spill it for me
Send me the flood
Let it rain on me

In the night, when everything is sleeping
I am the guardian of your innocence
In the night, when everything is sleeping
I pay attention so that nothing happens to you
In the night, when everything is sleeping
I kiss the salt from your wounds
In the night
Deep in the night...

This goes to you...only to you.But you don't know...

The weather is becoming cooler.Raining more and more.Just the way i like it.Especially when it rains at night.The raindrops just dropping from the sky.And the lights of the city just looking completely different when put as a back drop with the rain.The lights becoming more slick and long when reflected upon the surface of a shallow puddle.And unto that reflection falls little droplets of rain creating ripples that seem to go on forever.Putting one's face in the drop zone of the rain,seems ever refreshing.And not to mention the chilly weather that creates a counter effect of such comfort when one covers himself in a blanket.Boy...does that feel good.

Shook hands with Mr Khoo Swee Chiow today.It felt great.I wanna be like him one day.Pushing one's maximum and reaching new peaks of personal limits.I want to be one with the outdoors.

Nowadays getting pissed very easily.Don't know whats wrong with me.Maybe it's just the little little emotional heartbreaks that come across in a small but multiple manner.So many at one time.It's so frustrating.Oh well...i'm gonna catch some winks now.

So pissed with my PS2 now.Just bought GTA San Andreas.As everyone knows,that game is the bomb.And my dumbass PS2 cant load that shit!!Argh!Pretty amazed at myself being pissed over a dumb little thing.But i can't help it!!

Shed a tear in the school toilet today.I'm so upset.So blue.I want so much of a connection in which our feelings were mutual.But i guess,i'm just too afraid to try.Or maybe i myself believe that i can't do it.The best would be just to give up.Yeah,the best for both you and me.

I hate it when the exams are over and we have to go to school.What a waste of life.Everyone just goes to school and play cards or do some other crap all day.Yeah and in the midst of all that "fun",we have to watch out for teachers and listen to them trying to get us to shutup.Its dumb.But they get paid to do it,so its prolly what they deserve.

Haven't really be putting much effort into bboying recently.Most of my mates are preparing for the O's(All the best ya'll).So its been Tosh,Jia,Mikki and Me doing most of the dancing.But Mik and Jia usually come late so its me and Tosh like back in the day.Boy do i miss those times.I remember Tosh,Dax and I were the ones that remained to break after most of Tosh's friends left the scene to pursue something(or nothing?) in life.And every so often we would get busted by the guard and we would just roam around causeway aimlessly.Come to think about it,it has been a long journey in the ways of bboying for each one of us.Each one of us has learnt something valuable in each footstep.And within each footstep is a memory we will never forget.Add everything together,the result is a life.A life from this movement.And this movement helps us to progress in life.When we are low or happy,we express it with the use of our body.I remember BBoy Victor telling me to do flares when i am angry.Up to now,i will never forget that philosophy.I really respect him and his crew mates.For all that they have done and what their personal journey in bboyism has helped them.I don't know,but to many,our dance is just a little capoeira or some stunts done with beats.To me,its a life with beats to help us talk.To help us express our pains and joys.To all those bboys out there,keep the journey hyped...Peaceee.

Mir scheint dein einziger Defekt ist
dass du so ganz und gar perfekt bist
Du bist meine perfekte Droge
Du, du machst mich high
Du bist meine perfekte Droge
Du, du machst mich frei

It seems to me your only defect is
that you're so completely perfect
You are my perfect drug
You, you make me high.
You are my perfect drug
You, you make me free.